Clouds

So I just watched like

3 hours of TV

And oddly

It didnt make me feel

Any better

I am still overwhelmed

By hopelessness

Brokenness

Separateness

From this Living World

From this mess

I am still ungrounded

By my own transience

And loss

And the uncertainty that shrouds

My future

(Oh can't you see

Dark clouds

A-gathering)

I am angry

All the time

At patronising

Yet well-meaning

Yet self-serving

Attempts at wisdom

Where are the teachers

And leaders?

To teach

And to learn

I'm adrift

Unmoored 

As a cloud vanishes

And is gone

I dont know where to do

I dont know where to turn